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The Wedding Gown

Woah! Two months and two weeks to go, and I’ll finally wear a gown especially made for me – my wedding gown. ❤

Many years back, I have already planned my design. Back then, I knew exactly how I want the high necked, low-backed white gown would be accented with a big ribbon at the back. I knew that I wanted it to be elegant and fun…but not too loud that it would outshine my beautiful face. I knew that I wanted it to be simple and classy but still having a long train that could be removed or tied up during reception.

I took screenshots of the gowns that I wanted including Nikki Gil’s gown. I wanted to follow what she had written on her blog about choosing a wedding gown.

Fast forward to now, oh, how my head keeps aching. I can’t think well. Work, ministry, home responsibilities, house design, and planning for our wedding is having a crazy party on my mind. The bridal couturier and designer is already asking me if the design she drew is final. I know I should reply, but I couldn’t. Huhu. I’m so pressured, I don’t know what to say. Knowing me, I’m almost always undecisive, especially when I consider other people in my desicions.

I knew from the start that I wanted to choose my own design and have it sewed for me… but I still tried on a lot of gowns to fulfill a request. Well, maybe I could choose one. Hmmm… But I couldn’t. I didn’t. So when it’s almost chime time, we went to the couturier to make me show my design and have it sewed for me. Finally!!!

And yes, we were on a rush at that time so I don’t know if that’s the design that I really wanted. I wanted to say that I want it to be flowy, light, minimalist, classy, elegant, etc. I wanted it to be not too much, not too loud. But okay, it was done. I haven’t said what I wanted because of tiredness and time pressure. I am really not so sure now. I wanted to talk to her again just for my peace of mind. But what would I say?

Well, that’s the purpose of this blog. To help me organize my thoughts on what I would say. Let me practice… Hehe

>Okay lang po kayang magmeet ulit sa Saturday?

>>Ano ba ang gusto mong ipagawa?

>Gusto ko po sanang babaan pa ng konti ung likod para mas mahaba ang buttons.
>Gusto ko rin po sanang may mahabang skirt na nakapatong sa gown. Then, naaalis din ito sa reception para mas makagalaw at makasayaw. ❤ Kung sakali man pong hindi ito maaalis, gusto ko po sanang maitaas ito sa reception para maging komportable po akong gumalaw.
>Itatanong ko rin po sana kung hindi ba ako masyadong papayat sa longsleeve? Naitanong lang po for confidence. Hehe

Ito po ang pictures na gusto go for reference:

Maraming salamat po! ❤

Posted in Everyday Thanks, Prayer

Grateful Heart|01

Thank you, Lord…

  1. My brother was promoted as head coach of the chess team for the upcoming CLARAA meet.  Pa said, that’s the price he got from being honest and standing up for what’s right in spite of the pressure from his colleagues.  Bless him, Lord, in his endeavors to get his trainees to Palarong Pambansa.  Most of all, may Your name be glorified in all His achievements.
  2. Our neighbor who has been living in the U.S. for a very long time now agreed to sell his house and lot to us.  Yeys!  Truly, You are faithful, Lord!  You have better plans for us.  You don’t want the smaller house which was bought by someone just a week before Ma called, but you want to give us the bigger one we’ve all been praying for.  May it be used according to Your will and all for your glory.  Hooray for Crismo Library and Learning Center!
  3. I’m on my way to saving for the future.  I’ve opened a savings account on a trusted bank and also planning to open an account for stocks or mutual fund.  Pa will then teach me how to manage it.  Hoping for the best!
  4. I got another chance to pick another gown of my type for Ate Esang and Kuya Wards’ Wedding.  Hahaha.  Funny that this was my prayer request during our Young Adult prayer time in church this afternoon.  The gown I first chose wasn’t really the type I want to wear on their wedding.  It wasn’t well thought of due to lack of time; but before I could say anything, they called just an hour ago for me prepare the design that I really want.  Yey!  I pray for a good design and a decisive mind.  Amen!

Oh, my dear Lord.  Thank you for the ministries you have entrusted me and the opportunities to serve you as a young adult, writer, and teacher.  Please, oh, please…help me to do my responsibilities well.  How I want to serve You better.  May You equip me with wisdom, knowledge, and skills to do it.  Help me to keep my eyes and heart focused on You alone.  May Your name be praised.  In Your mighty name, Jesus, Amen! Amen!

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2019 Goals

These are some things that I want to achieve or accomplish this year. Kokontihan lang natin para realistic. 😉

1. Maiayos ang kwarto. Mawala/mapamigay/maiayos ang lahat ng tambak (pile of clothes and other things) dito sa kwarto.

2. Magpa-brace. Hirap na po ako sa “esh”. I mean, “s”.

3. Makapag-ipon.

4. Mabili ung bigger house sa tabi namin.  Sa part na ‘to, mas si Papa ang makakakilos. Siya ang may pera. Hehehe.

5. Mag-aral? Di ko masyadong priority ‘to ngayon. Nasa pag-aayos talaga ng bahay ang focus ko…pero malay natin. 😉

‘Yan muna. Less is more.


Posted in Everyday Thanks

Life’s Lessons on my 28 Years of Experience

I’ve just celebrated my 28th birthday on the 3rd of October.  Hooray!


I thank God for my family, friends, and the life’s great lessons I gained from my 28 years of experience on earth.  Haha.  I’m jotting down the first 28 lessons on my mind.  Enjoy!

  1.  You cannot choose your parents and they age as you do.  Love them with all your heart.
  2. There is no one formula for love.  God has written a unique love story for each of us and it’s all beautiful.
  3. Love doesn’t go away; it just changes in form.
  4. God is the author of love.
  5. People come and go.  Some people come in our lives for a specific reason, then go away after fulfilling their purpose.
  6. Some people may come back on another chapter of our lives.
  7. Moving on isn’t just for romantic relationships.  Sometimes it involves family, friends, work, or a chapter in your life that you want to stay but you couldn’t anymore.
  8. Time isn’t the key to moving on; acceptance is.
  9. Move at your own pace; but remember that time won’t wait for you.
  10. Slow down.  Take time to smell the flowers, watch the birds fly or the clouds go by.
  11. Travel with a purpose.
  12. Travelling is so much better with friends.
  13. Travelling is even better with family.  Give time for it once in a while.
  14. Lend money and don’t expect it back.
  15. Save.  You’ll never know when you’ll need it.
  16. There will always be that friend who will stick closer than a brother.
  17. Your plans may fail but God has better ones prepared for you.  Trust Him.
  18. Set your priorities right.
  19. Important and urgent are two different things.
  20. Integrity involves being consistently good at home, school, church, community…and everywhere else you go.
  21. It’s hard to be good at all times.  That’s where grace comes in.
  22. Have your principles aligned with Christ, and stand by it.
  23. Invest only what you can afford to lose. (Oh, btc!)
  24. Health matters.  Invest on it.  Eat the right food, exercise, and sleep.  (Yes, I know it’s hard but you can do it! )
  25. Sometimes, you are the answer to your own prayers.
  26. You can be the answer to somebody else’s prayers.
  27. Consistency is beautiful.
  28. Things change, people change, but the love of God remains the same.

So that’s it.  There’s more to come, and  there’s a lot more to do.  Yay!  I thank God for all the blessings and the opportunities to learn and to serve Him more with all my heart.

And as apostle Paul said to the church in Thessalonians,

Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.” – 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

I’ll remember these words (my life verses) as I go on another year of experience.

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Rushing Papers and M.H. Del Pilar Day

Here’s to another day of rushing papers
‘Cause I’ve got enough of the “laters”
Work-related… Ministry-related
Same-day dated

How I wish I could stretch the time
Not yet wanting to hear a chime
But no! There’s no other way
But to thank God for a holiday!

Thank You, Lord, for Marcelo H. Del Pilar who became our country’s hero through his writings.  Del Pilar, better known by his pen name Plaridel, was a Filipino writer, lawyer, and journalist from Bulakan, Bulacan who also became the editor of La Solidaridad after Graciano Lopez Jaena.  He, along with Rizal and Lopez Jaena, became the leaders of the Proganda Movement which was a  key step towards Philippine National identity.

Thank You, Lord, for his life…and the holiday celebrated for his birth anniversary.  May this day be as productive as it should be. May you bless my writings that it may it lead to a change of heart for You alone.   In Jesus’ name, I pray, AMEN!

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Ibalik Natin Ang Dati

Ibalik natin ang dati
Noong una kitang minahal
Noong Ikaw ang kausap araw-araw
Noong bukang-bibig sa mga kaibigan ay Ikaw

Sabik ako sa’yo
Sabik ako sa mga yakap mo
Inaabangan ko ang mga kwento mo
Handang makinig sa mga sasabihin mo

Ibalik natin ang panahon
Noong Ikaw ang sentro ng bawat desisyon
Ikaw ang laman ng mga binubuong pangarap
Ikaw ang dahilan ng lahat ng pagsisikap

Gusto kong bumalik sa dati
Ibalik na natin ang dati
Babalik ako sa dati
O mas hihigitan ko pa ang dati

Posted in young adults

Nasaan ang mga UMYAF?

Nasaan nga ba?
Hinahanap mo rin ba sila?
Nakukumusta mo pa ba?

Nakita ko sila.
Subsob sa trabaho.
Kailangan nila ng lakas.

Nakita ko sila.
Kasama ang mga kaibiga’t katrabaho.

Nakita ko sila.
Iba-ibang mukha.
Iba-iba ng ginagawa.

Nakita ko na sila.
Nakita ko ang sarili ko.
Isa rin ako sa kanila.

Paglilingkod din ang trabaho.
Hindi rin naman bawal ang magsaya.
Basta gawin ang lahat para sa Diyos.

Mas malawak na ang ministeryo.
Nawa’y magampanan ng husto.
Ang lahat ay para pa rin kay Cristo.

Posted in Prayer, Quiet Time

40 Days Challenge


“Pray before you decide.”

That is God’s message for me during our prayer meeting a while ago.  So now, I am up for a 40 days challenge.  40 days of prayer.  40 days of intimacy with God.  40 days of listening before acting.  40 days of purity and love.

Why 40 days?  Why not 30 or 20 or 10?

A lot of things happen in 40 days.  Noah’s ark floated in the big waters/flood for 40 days and 40 nights with the angels watching over it.  Our Lord Jesus Christ stayed in the desert for 40 days where he was tempted, but the angels came and helped him.  When I was a child, a couple in our church got back together after 40 days of prayer by the church youth, including their children….and many other testimonies about 40 days of prayer.  And yep, 40 days encourages discipline.

I want to spend the next 40 days (and of course, the rest of my life) in full dependence on God – listening to Him, seeking His will.  This will be done through daily Bible reading, prayer, sharing and living out God’s Word.  I know that this will help me to grow as a Christian and to be more like Christ.

May the next 40 days help me to grow deeper in love with You, my Savior, Lord and Master, Jesus Christ.  May this help me to know more about You and bear more fruit for You.  May this journey guide me in the steps that I will take and the big and small decisions that I will make.  In Jesus’ mighty name. Amen!

It’s interesting to find a 40-day devotional notebook which I wrote a looong time ago to supposedly give as a present for a friend’s mother.  This has helped me when I was still writing it.  I guess, I could use it again now.

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Heart Check

Why do you really want it?

Is it just because you’re feeling stressed and burned out at work?  Oh, if that’s so, I think you have to pray more.  Being a missionary isn’t a scapegoat for all your dramas. In fact, I think it might give you more. And unless it’s really your call to be one, you couldn’t be happier.

Is it because of your broken heart?  Oh, if that’s so, you have to give it all to God, my dear.  Your broken heart belongs to Him.  Jesus is the only name I know who could fix it.  Not any other things.  Not going away.  Not your selfish desires.

Oh, so now you’re telling me about soul-searching.  Uhuh.  You’re not sure if you’re really called to be a teacher forever.  Wait, are you searching for happiness?  fulfillment?  more joy?  new place to go? new environment?

Okay, I remember.  You wrote this in your 100 Dreams.  You talked about this in college.  You found joy in the mountain you once climbed to teach those Dumagat kids.  You even told them you would go back (In time, my dear. In God’s time).  Yes, I know.  You like adventures.  You love interacting with people from different places.  You’re flexible.  You could sleep anywhere.  You don’t choose your food (well, ahmmm…okay. slash the ripe banana.)  You’re a great listener.  Your friends say you’re an encourager.

What does those things got to do with your call?



Is it because of your calling?  Hmmm…? Okay, well then.  Pray harder.  You have to be sure, dearest.  Pray harder.  And make your feet move fast.  God will prepare the way for you….if it is really your call.



Oh, Lord, I pray for a genuine desire to help and to serve Your people through whatever way I can.  Please keep my heart pure and remove all my selfish desires.  I want to please You.  I want to love You more…and make people feel Your love, too.  You know what’s in my heart and mind even before I say it.  Please give me more wisdom to decide.  And please add up some strength and courage, too.

I know I’ll be missing a lot of people as I gain more experience through this kind of service.  Ahuhu.

Search my heart, Lord.

May Your will be done.  Amen.